I wanted to blog yesterday, was writing 1 paragraph and then, I lost my internet connection. -.-" And decided to postpone till today instead. I did nothing much yesterday. Pretty much just slacking at home. Since the holidays are here, I've been indulging myself with online games, and if not that, I'll be working. Haiya. And I tried to find the male version of my blog skin, but still to no avail. All's the girly kind.

And I'm gonna quit my current job soon. I think working there for 1 year is already enough. It's the longest job that I had so far. I'll try to find other jobs that is less rushing? Somewhat like that. Anyway, I really don't like to work on Saturdays. =/ Last Saturday, we ended closing like around 1130pm and I took the last train to Kranji at 1215am and I only managed to reach home at 1am. :( It's always like that on Saturdays. At least Friday is somewhat better. And Gopi asked me a question that had me thinking for a while. He asked me, "Nina, are you a hot/short-tempered kind of person?" At that point, I myself wasn't sure of the answer. I wasn't sure if I've been hot/short-tempered lately. So, I just replied, "It depends. And yes, if I was forced into a situation."

After 18years of living, there are a few things that I haven't discover about myself. Cause simply said, I don't put aside time to discover myself. And being in a relationship of 1 year and 8 months in the past has taught me 1 thing - don't let people take advantage of my kindness. Yes, and due to this, I'm firm of certain decisons that I made, although it may sound like I'm cruel and heartless. But that's what life is all about. There's no certain fairness. And I'm beginning to be able to express my thoughts to people now. I still remember when I got scolded by Zaid in public because I don't tell him my inner thoughts and kept denying them. And knowing him, he'd prefer the truth rather than hearing things that ain't 100% true. And imagine the stares and the humiliation that I received when we were fighting. Damn. I should have just have the courage to just stand up for myself and walk away, instead of getting those kind of treatments back then. But hey, it's all over now. No more harsh treatments. Although we're not as close as before, at least he taught me the essence of communication. And that is very important.

Be it face to face or via medium, now I'm able to tell people my feelings and whatnots. :) There's many issues revolving around me, but I don't wish to address them, cause what's the point of making myself feel sad right? I should just treasure the people who treasure me. :) Life is short and we should always make full use of our time given in this world.

Speaking of which, something else happens on 14th Feb that really made me think. Earlier in the day just before I went out, I read my mails and there's an email that I came across - What happens when we sleep. At that time, I didn't really think much of it but when I came back home and was watching tv, I suddenly thought of the mail. What happens if that was my last day on Earth and did I make full use of that day? I remember having trouble going to sleep for fear that I might not live to see tomorrow. I don't know why but it hit me real hard. And when I woke up the next day, I did my prayers and after that went back to sleep. But just before I went back to sleep, I remember sending SMS to people, wishing that they'll find happiness. I guess I was really afraid that I might not be able to live to see tomorrow. I remember I didn't speak much on that Sunday. Everything, I kept to myself. But as days go by, I felt better and thanks to school, I kept myself occupied.

Okay, enough about that. I think I'll have to find some time to take up car license. I wanted to take bike license, but many said that car is a much better choice. :( I'll have to find time to do just that. And during this 1 month plus holidays, I don't think I'm really gonna work that much. It's gonna be boring if I just work. So, I'm gonna date a few people and bring them out. MMMMMMMMMMSSSSSSSSSS - Karaoke cepat!!!! :D

And the surprise that I had planned for someone went pretty well. Since he had a rough week in camp since he had to carry 80kg load shared by 4 people and marched around camp, I thought of cheering him up. So, I got for him 4 small ice-cream cake (got for free. Heh) and waited for him at the playground for him to get ready. When he came, told him to close his eyes and tadaaaa, asked him to hold out his hand and gave him the box. Imagine the look on his face. Haha. He didn't know what to say and ke kept on saying that he's shy and stuff. So, told him to go home and put the cakes in the freezer and then, come back down and off we went to have dinner at Causeway. Ate Swensen's and it was my treat cause he's been paying for my meals everytime we go out. That won't be nice. And while waiting, he said something about not nice. I thought he was referring to the food, so I told him to eat something that is nice. But what he actually meant was that, he don't feel nice about me giving him the treat. Then I told him that it's only occasionally and that he has been paying for mine. That won't do. After much persuasion, he reluctantly agreed. And he kept on staring when I was eating. Told him not to stare when I'm eating umpteen or else I would blush. Hahaha. Maluuuuuu laaaaa. After that, he sent me home although I told him not to. Gahh.
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