okay, 2 papers down. 2 more to go. =/ Yesterday's OBC paper was manageable. had a slight moment of the brain being blocked. grrrr. the day before, on Monday, i went to school to clarify my doubts. Su taught me and i understood everything. :) i reached there around at 4pm and went out of school at 8pm. 4 hours of solid chemistry!! ugh. don't remind me of O-Level. i don't think i have ever studied for more than 2 hrs for any subject.

i had MST today. im glad i knew how to do most of the questions, although there are a few that im not sure of. and i think, im really super slow when it comes to calculating, cause i didn't manage to complete the paper although it's a 2-hour paper. =/ and the day before, on Monday, right after OBC paper, i studied for MST. started at 1pm and ended off at 5pm. and again, 4 solid hours of MST. and yes, i didn't move my butt around. i disciplined myself and sat there for 4 hours, doing MST. record-breaker. i have NEVER sat and studied that long for Maths. i don't know what motivates me to just sit there and concentrate. =/ heh.

so after school today, i had initially wanted to study SFP. but laziness has taken over me. =/ i ended up buying Milo Bubble Tea outside school and then went back to school to watch a DVD. hah. wasting precious time, yes i know. i watched a dance-related movie, "Save The Last Dance". i don't know why but i just love dance-related shows. :D

okay, so after watching the DVD, i used the computer. and yes, i really regret going into friendster. =/ shouldn't have gone in. the picture really tears me apart. as soon as i saw it, i just had this sudden rush of anger? im not sure what the feeling is. but i found myself breathing really hard. =/ i stared at the screen and a thousand thoughts ran through my mind. and suddenly, it all makes sense. all the questions that you've been asking, i finally get it now. after all i've done for you, im just a NOBODY to you. smsed Zuley - BBF and he called back. i'm sorry to bother you. i know you're busy with your NS life and i shouldn't have called you. but at that point of time, i felt like i had nobody to confide in. and well, since you're the closest to him, i think you'll know the answer. but Zuley - BBF couldn't talk for long. so, i smsed Pezal cause i really have to find out the truth and as long as i didn't found out the truth, i'll be really restless. and yes, just like what the saying goes, "The truth hurts". i broke down as soon as i read the message and knew the truth. it just hurts so bad. =/ i feel kind of tortured inside?? i locked myself in the toilet for 20minutes. i keep seeing the picture in my head. and while on the way home, a thousand things and memories ran through my mind. one thing that im still not sure of, up till today, "Just what am I to you?" that's all i need to know. i keep thinking and thinking but im still clueless. Are you only contacting me when you realise that you had no one? Am I just a spare to you? Are you going to contact me when you're bored and feels like it? i don't know what to think anymore. and thanks to Melly and Mel for cheering me up. i appreciate it a lot. saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayang korang!! :D

enough about this. on last friday, i had to wake my brother up for his Friday prayers. and god knows how torturous it is to wake him up. he sleeps like a log. a really really log. after poking and slapping the face and shaking the body umpteen realise, he only opened his eyes for a while and after that, off he went to lalaland again. =/ grrr. and you know what i did? i was frustrated and i just pulled him of his bed.

he can even sleep in this position. haiyo. *slaps forehead* but after that, i kept nagging and nagging. when he got tired of my nagging, he did this - covered himself up with the blanky.

i pulled the blanky off and like FINALLY, he went to bathe.

anyway, i chatted with Desmond as he was trying out his new webcam. he made faces and i asked him to make silly faces and he really did a great job. Good Work ah, Des!!! :D hahaha. he really made me laughed in front of the screen like one retarded idiot. haha. he made many faces but my top 2 favourite photos are as below.

the buck-toothed sex maniac. hahaha. and i told him to give me a really biiiiiiig smile. :D

he came up with this idea, and he name this the Tribal Chief. and i wonder, where the hell did he get the leaf from. haha. the buck-toothed Tribal Chief. hahah.

and as per usual, i asked him to give me a biiiiiiiiiiiig smile. :D

he's really trying hard to make his eyes look big. hahaha.

and then i told him to make them BIGGER, and this was how he tried to make them bigger. hahah. but i think, they looked smaller? heh. :D it's okay, Des.

okay, im gonna sleep late tonight - revising and probably at the same time, watch "A Walk To Remember". i fell in love with the show. just a sweet show, how can somebody don't fall in love with it?

♥ 11:41 PM