hey, im not in the best of mood. im feeling really restless.

you know, all the backstabbing and hypocracy is happening around me. i mean it didnt happened to me, but it happened to one of my classmate. it was always said that "Keep your enemies close but keep your friends closer". it's really heartbreaking when your friend, let's say in this case, bestfriend for over four years, backstabbed you in the back. she did all the bad, eh no, worst things you can ever imagine and it's only 6 months later that you found out about what she did. but the worst thing is that she pretended to care and be there for my friend's side when a mishap happened. that's all hypocracy.

and then now, she's finding fault with this friend of mine. actually, it's a long and complicated story. and i dont know how, but i was implicated into the nonsense and now, im feeling really restless. not restless as in guilt conscience or what, but restless in the sense that i dont feel safe about the people around me. people as in strangers, not my friends. it's damn complicated lah, even if i were to put it in words, it would be hard to understand. all i know is that, my life isn't that peaceful and safe for the time being.

since the day this shit happened, im afraid to go home. i'll be looking all aorund for any suspicious character. the thing that scares me is that they know where i live and work. like wtf. how did they even know? it must be that they followed me home. it's damn scary you know. i've been having trouble sleeping because of this. this thing is like a huge burden on my head. i can't concentrate that much in class due to all these shitty stuff. now, whenever i want to go out, i don't feel safe anymore. this feeling just suck.

if i just keep quiet and do nothing, my friend will be in trouble. if i do something, i'll be in trouble and so is my friend. so now what?????? im trapped in between. ugh. there's pros and cons to both sides.
♥ 11:25 PM