no school for me today. :D but i decided to go to school to study since i know i'll be tempted to use the comp if i stayed at home. im going to head down to school maybe, let's say, around 130pm?

i went to work today. new staffs. haha. very funny. i just knew them and all the merepeks start coming out. haha. i've clicked with them. :) great people. they made me laugh everytime during work. i can't be serious around them. heh.

you claimed that it's over. you claimed that i don't care about you/don't love you anymore. which part of me shows that i don't care about you? you tell me, if i don't care/love you, i won't be willingly enough to go from tampines to jurong just to help you return all the dvds that you borrowed. if i don't love you, i won't wait hours for you to finish work just to see you even for a few mintues. i'm sacrifising my own time just to see you. and now, you said that i don't care about you. if i didn't care about you, i wouldn't have gone to the hospital straight away when you called and say you were sick. i wouldn't have bothered to go down. god knows how tired i was when i came back from the camp, without sleeping. i can only manage to sleep for a few hours when i reached home before you called. i msg-ed you umpteen times but you didn't reply. and now you claimed that i don't care about you. who don't care about who, you tell me??? i waited like one kind of fool, but in the end, no reply. usually, after work, it's either you or me will wait for each other to finish work. i was hoping and hoping but you never fails to bring me down, right? i was utterly disappointed when i found out that you've reached home, without MSGING ME. at least if you're going home or what, msg me, so i'll know, and i won't be hoping like crazy. but seriously, i think that you are different from before. you no longer acted like how i first knew you. you've changed. you neither msg nor call. do you know how insecure i feel? everyday, there's always new stories. and when i told you my insecurities, you get the wrong idea. it's so hard to talk to you. or maybe you are just finding reasons/excuses to break away from me. i don't think that i did anything wrong all these while. if everything that i had dont for you/sacrifised for you isn't enough to show that i cared for/loved you, then i don't know what else to call it. you never try to understand me. you've never attempted to understand me, do you? you always think that you are right. you never listen to others. you keep putting the blame on me. but im just keeping quiet, tolerating every seconds of it. you NEVER msg-ed/called to say "How im feeling?, How im coping with studies? etc.." NEVER. you NEVER did any of those. you only cared about your own self. i don't know why im typing all these when i know that right now, at this very moment, you are not thinking about me, thinking about how i might be feeling. im tired of always being the one to ask, to say, to do everything in the relationship. im tired. im really really tired of all THESE.
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