hello. it's public holiday today. there's no school today. initially, i wanted to go to work, but then since i have 2 projects at hand, i decided to stay home and work on them. anyways, before i started getting serious and work on my project, let me update for a while. :)

last saturday, Ninie and her family dine-in at Swensens to celebrate her birthday. despite the fact that i start working at 3pm, i hugged her the moment i spot her. then, chit-chatted for a while. i punched in at 3.10pm. heh. work on sat and sun was as per usual, normal.

last mon, i came extra early - by 15mins, hehe, to finish up my amaths before lecture starts at 3pm. actually school starts at 12 noon and it was lab but then, ChairPerson said there's no lab for this week. :) and just as what i have expected, there's a pop quiz. no news about it. it was a surprise test. the first thing that i heard as soon as i step in the LT, "Put your bags in front and take out your pencil case and calculator. We're having pop quiz". the first phrase that i muttered was "OH SHIT." it was on differentiation and integration. there's 4 questions, 2 for each topic. and we were given like 15mins to do the questions?!! but heck, i managed to complete all four questions, but im not sure if the answere were right. hah. but at least i tried my best. :) school ended at 6pm. and just as i was about to exit school, i turned to the mushroom and i saw Hafizah and Nadira!!! hahaha. i ran to their direction. and they were waiting for ROSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANE!! since i've had too much time, i waited for her as well. and finally, i got to see her. :D

afterwards, i head to Dhoby for the usual reason. :) waited for him and then i went over to the west to have dinner with his mommy and aunt. he almost passed out during the journey and we alighted at Commonwealth as he wanted to go to the toilet urgently. he was inside the gents for around 15mins and i was getting worried. i swear i was on the verge of going into the gents to check. but i didn't i resist the urge to do so. i called and fortunately, he answered. then, we cabbed down to the eating place sice he could not take it anymore. and inside the cab, he talked about deaths and stuff. grrr. i hate it when he talked about deaths cause it's like he didn't appreciate that he got a chance to live. and he keeps claiming that he's troubling me. aiyo. i just don't like it when he thinks that way.

when we reached there, i was a little quiet since his mommy and aunt were around. after we sat down for a while, we were on our feet again, going towards the dvd rental shop. and this time, we brought his niece, Dwi, along. she's so cute lah. so chubby. heh. and when we were walking towards the shop, he claimed that Dwi looks like our daughter. hahah. since when we got married and since when i gave birth?!! hahaha. after renting 3 dvds, i carried Dwi since she's sleepy. at first i was afraid that i might drop her but i didn't okay. heh. carried her all the way to the eating place. and she didn't want the boyfriend to carry her. haha. awww. im soo honored. Dwi likes me. hahaha. ape-ape jer lah aku nie.

on tuesday, school was great. 5 china students joined us for Food and Culture (FNC). they were kind of quiet cause there's the language barrier. but still, they're friendly. after school, i went to Dhoby for the usual reason. :D

on wednesday, i was supposed to go for the rock-climbing trial. but in the end, i backed out. you know, sometimes i hate my self for being so fickle-minded. the reason i backed out was the trainings was the rock-climbing was three times per week and it's on mon, wed and thurs. and the trainings would be from 6pm to 9pm. so, if i were to join, it's going to be hard since i lived at the north area and i was afraid that i won't have time to do the homeworks. but still, i love rock-climbing. :(((( i wanted to join, but then.... hmmm.

then at night, i went to Dhoby. but this time, it didn't went well. ugh. whatever. sometimes, i wonder, was it really my fault or was it just your ego? your ego that claims that you're in the right when it's wrong. you know, all this while, there's mistakes that you made and when i wanted to tell you that they're wrong, im afraid that you might get they wrong idea of what im trying to say, and in the end, we'll be back to square one - you keeping quiet and i'll have to make the first move to initiate things to get better. you make it sound like as if i made one big mistake, but in the first place, who was the one that made me pissed off??? i tried to tell you the reason why im angry. but you just refused to see it/get it. and i know that if i didn't make the first move to sms you and wish for things to get better, you WON'T sms me. i can bet till my last dollar that you won't make the first move. although they said that you won't change, i'll still believe and hoping that one day, you'll realise your mistakes. miracles do happen and i hope that im the lucky one to experience it. and whenever some bad things happen, you'll rake up the past. you claimed that i show you attitude. you told me off on the phone about me showing attitude to you. i kept quiet cause i was keeping my cool. just don't make me tell and remind you of all the littlest things/mistakes that you did, which i knew that if i told you, you will deny them and you'll be keeping quiet again. and I'LL have to be the one to initiate things to get better. im being patient and hanging on to all this, hoping that something good will come out at the end.

i called Faizal to tell him about this Saturday and i accidentally vent my anger to him. sorry eh, bud! =/ i was really frustrated yesterday that i felt like shouting my lungs out. argh. anyways, thank you Faizal and Zule for making me laugh and cheering me up. and sorry to Faizal for the 20minutes of letting my anger off to you. tak sengaje. =/ you two made stupid jokes/comments that made me forget about the whole situation. :D
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