heys. not in the best of mood.felt like..,umm.watever u want to name it. i dont know what is wrong with me these few days. always got irritated easily. one moment, i can be happy happy, happy go lucky, cheerie..but in the next moment, i may just shut myself up, and refusing to tell what's on my mind.what's become of me..

but u see, the thing is that, i cant say anything face to face. it's just not me. i have already told u that before. whenever i want to say what's on my mind, there's just something that prevents me from saying it, like there's sumting in my throat. the words just stuck there.it's just a thing in me that prevents me from saying what i wanted to say.

haiyoh. i've been trying my best to open-up.i really want to be straightforward but i think it's just not the time yet. maybe i should wait for a few more months or maybe years? i dont know.and when i came to think of it, i myself dont understand why i am like this, unable to say things face to face.it takes time, you know, to change from this to that.and i,myself too wants to change for the better.

whenever u asked me if there's something wrong, i'll just reply, nothing. i know u are disappointed with me for keeping things from u. i guess it takes time.

im just going to let nature takes its course.

im just going to let nature do its job.
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